missing her.... :(

ak rindu gila ngan mami....rindu talampau smpai rasa mau menangis...ak teringat mami kalau ak rasa cm hilang..jiwa kacau...kalau mami ada mesti dia dapat tenangkan ak...ak xtaula...masok tahun ni suda 9 tahun mami mninggal...ak sayang mami...ak salu masok hospital n tengok org yg sakit buah pinggang n darah tinggi...exactly like my mami...ak sedih...ak tringin pusing balek masa n jaga mamiku sedaya upaya...dulu waktu dia sakit ak xbyk jaga dia...waktu tu ak baru 13 tahun...apa yg ak patut buat?ak sedih betul...betapa byk benda yg ak missed out just because i dont have a mother at this stage of my life..Ak hilang purpose,ak balek rumah xda org utk dipeluk n my heart seems like wandering around, it can't find it's way home...my heart lives in my mother's heart...i badly need her...bila ak susah hati,jiwa kacau,confirm dia dapat tenangkan hatiku..my sis n bro got their own life to live...mnada masa mau peduli psl ak...ak xtawla...ak sgt2 rindu mami..but thinking at d bright side,ak syukur Allah ambil mami sbb i cant even think of all the sufferings that she had been through for the rest of her life...rest in peace Hajah Siti Rahmatia binti Rajanna (27 Sept 1956- 9 Jan 2002)...i love u forever...i wish i can see u n hear ur voice again...even in my dreams...al-fatihah