berasa agak insecure & kurang tenang

hmm...sebenarnya mau cakap pasal kolej ak....recently I've read about one article stating that my college appointed several celebrities to be their representative/ spokesperson...the first thought of mine was like 'what the...?' I can't even see the purpose of this action....tiba2 ak rasa macam belajar dalam akademi fantasia pulak....perlukah ambil artis untuk jadi duta? ak x nampak any benefit melainkan untuk meraih publisiti murahan semata2....strategy bisnes la katakan...pelik....kalau mo cakap kebajikan kami sebagai student di sini sangat terpelihara, x jugak....banyak kali terpaksa berdepan dengan problem akibat management yang agak....x efektif & last minit. I think doing unnecessary stuffs is their expertise...they might have a PhD in those kind of thing. satu demi satu la hal2 yang xberfaedah diorg buat. xpaham betul....pelik tapi benar...too much flaws in their system to the extend that they can't be concealed anymore. aku takut 1 hari nanti ada hal buruk yang jadi pada kami semua....tiba2 x eligible to practice as a doctor....ak mo watpa time tu...? mo start balek from ground zero..? gilaka apa? mo jadi penyanyi gakla pastu tunggu dilantik jadi duta untuk certain university pulak. ataupun jadi pelukis manga/komik..atau bukak kedai bunga or roti. emm apa lagi ya cita2 ak..? jadi translator atau anything to do with language. ak sukak language...hehehe bahasa cina or jepun. haha...bukak kedai pet ka....hmmphhh. Ya Allah mudah2an ak sempat jadi doktor.....because I don't even have a convincing plan B to live the rest of my life. Orang cakap balek kampung tanam jagung (kalau mau tanam kelapa sawit ok x sebab lagi banyak duit hehe) atau kahwin terus (the latter one seems more promising ahahahaha). Tidakkk.......!!!